Day 264

No weight this morning. It's been a rough day too. I'm about to send my husband to get ice cream. I just kind of want it. I was going to say need it. But that's not true. It was just a long day and the thought of all that is still to come in the next few weeks makes my heart race. I just want a treat.  I know it won't hurt me, but I know I will feel so quilty afterwards. I'm not sure why. It's just food. Ugh!

May 31- ??

Breakfast- oatmeal

Lunch- beans and brown rice and chia seed chips

Snack- small cliff bar

Dinner- salad with chicken and croutons

Day 263

Lots of food today. Oh well!

May 30- ??

Breakfast- oatmeal

Lunch- salad, tomato soup and bread chunk, grapes, veggies

Snack- larabar

Dinner- naked burrito and chips

Day 262

I stepped on today. Wished I hadn't.  But no going back. I'm hoping that AF actually comes back in the next few days. That might make a difference too. But we'll see. 

May 29- 136

Breakfast- oatmeal

Lunch- salad with chicken and toppings, fruit salad

Snack- larabar

Dinner- chips and larabar and veggies (later)

Day 261

I am so tempted to blow the whole no sugar thing out the door for a treat.  I've passed by DQ so many times. I really just want to get secret ice cream with my hubby and sit oun the couch in the quiet of the summer night and enjoy it in his company. Ugh!  So hard!   

No weigh in again this morning. I was going to do it but woke up late and got busy with other things before I realized that I hadn't done it. Oh well. 

May 28- ??

Breakfast- oatmeal

Lunch- beans and rice, chips and fruit salad

Snack-larabar

Dinner- chicken wrap, chips and pea pods

Exercise- 2.5 mile walk!!!

Day 260

No weight again this morning. I should be able to tomorrow. We'll see what the morning brings. 

May 27- ??

Breakfast- oatmeal

Lunch- beans and rice, chia chips and fruit

Snack- larabar

Dinner- broccoli, salad and chili

Day 259

So glad I worked up the courage to weigh myself this morning. It was reassuring to see that I was back down even though I didn't feel like I had done a lot to get there. I'm thankful to have a "normal" week of work this week. But I'm starting to get concerned with what life will be like once we hit the summer. Things are going to get so crazy with moving, vacation, and getting this house ready for renters. We'll see what life deals me and take it one day at a time. 

May 26- 133.4

Breakfast- fiber one

Lunch- beans and brown rice, chia seed chips

Snack- tortilla chips

Dinner- chicken and steak kabobs and peppers and corn

Snack- popcorn 

Day 258

No idea again this morning. I didn't feel like weighing myself.  

May 25- ??

Breakfast- fiber one

Lunch- burrito and chips

Snack- larabar

Dinner- salad and fruit

Snack- popcorn and chips (after the running around for prepping for a birthday party, I was hungry!!)

Day 257

No weigh in again. Still concerned. 

May 24-??

Breakfast- fiber one

Lunch- burrito and chips

Snack- larabar

Dinner-grad party-- chicken and rice bowl

Day 256

Crappy all around. I weighed more than u was expecting. I ate crappy and just feel blah all the way around. 

May 23- 136!!!!!!!!

Breakfast- oatmeal

Lunch- pita chips

Snack-masa chips

Dinner- left over taco, beans, couscous 

Day 255

Still haven't weighed myself. I know my eating hasn't been spot on and I'm afraid to see what it says. I need a couple days of great eating and then I will. 

May 22- ??

Breakfast- oatmeal with chia seeds

Lunch- taco meat, black bean, couscous and chia chips, pea pods and grapes

Snack- larabar

Dinner- chicken wrap and pita chips

Day 254

No weigh in again. I'm over it. 

May 21- ??

Breakfast- fiber one

Lunch- naked burrito and larabar

Dinner- smoothie

Snack- popcorn

Day 253

Stepped on the scale today...boo!

May 20- 134

Breakfast- oatmeal

Lunch- chili and salad

Snack- larabar

Dinner- taco meat, beans, couscous and chips

Day 252

No idea where I stand today. My little popcorn snack at the end of the day yesterday got me paranoid. 

May 19- ??

Breakfast- oatmeal

Lunch- burrito, pita chips, pea pods, grapes

Snack- larabar

Dinner- carrots and sesame sticks (a mom on the go dinner)

Day 251

Glad to have been back down today. Hoping that continues but after our lunch with boy 3 today and my dinner I'm not too hopeful. I'm also fighting off a craving for popcorn right now. 

May 18- 133.3

Breakfast- oatmeal with chia

Lunch- naked burrito and chips

Snack- larabar

Dinner- 2 ribs, carrots and corn

Day 250

Well... For being a milestone day, it started pretty crummy. I wasn't happy with what the scale said so I didn't record it. It was 134 something but kept bouncing around to the 135s too. Ugh... Annoying. 

May 17- ???

Breakfast- fiber one and half a banana

Lunch- multigrain chips and grapes

Snack- larabar

Dinner- burger, broccoli, couscous and smoothie 

Day 249

Still content...

May 16- 133.2

Breakfast- oatmeal

Snack- banana

Lunch- chicken chili, multigrain chips, pea pods, grapes

Snack- larabar

Dinner- chicken stir fry

Day 248

Glad I stepped back on. Hanging right in there...

May 15- 132.2

Breakfast- fiber one 

Snack- banana

Lunch- taco meat, black beans, brown rice, chips, strawberries and grapes

Snack- larabar

Dinner- salad with chicken, craisins and chia seeds, yonanas

Day 247

I really need to get over my fear of the scale. I didn't weigh myself again this morning because I was afraid it would be up after eating a bigger dinner last night. What a crazy mind game I play with myself. Up and down and up and down. Will it ever end??

May 14- ??

Breakfast- oatmeal

Snack- banana

Lunch- taco meat, brown rice, beans, chips, pea pods

Snack- larabar and apple

Dinner- smoothie 

Day 246

Back up a little today. I'm okay with it. 

May 13- 133.2

Breakfast- fiber one

Snack- fruit

Lunch- burrito, pea pods, chia chips

Snack- larabar

Dinner- taco meat, black beans, brown rice, tortilla chips

Day 245

Again with being afraid to weigh myself. I'm going to tomorrow...

May 12- ??

Breakfast- oatmeal and fruit

Lunch- burrito, chips, pea pods

Snack- larabar and grapes

Dinner- salad with chicken

Day 244

Today is Mother's Day. I am reminded today why I need to go through this whole process. Not only did each of these boys shape me into this physically but they are also the reason that I am in such good health today. They are the good and the bad. Haha. 

May 11- 132.7

Breakfast- fiber one

Lunch- eggs, fruit and sausage (Baruch at my sister's... I could he done a lot worse)

Dinner- qdoba naked burrito and chips

Day 243

Feeling good about things...

May 10- 132.2

Breakfast- fiber one

Lunch- salad, fruit, prime rib, broccoli (we were at the Tigers game-- thankful I did this well)

Dinner- chicken wrap

Day 242

I didn't weigh myself this morning. I think I was afraid to see what it would say. Stupid numbers game. 

May 9- ??

Breakfast- oatmeal

Snack- banana

Lunch- chicken chili, salad with chicken, pea pods

Snack- pear

Dinner- salad and chili 

Day 241

Well- that was completely unexpected!  I never would have thought that I would actually weigh 130. I really do need to figure out how to balance between losing weight and gaining. I'm sure there is a healthy way to maintain, I just can't seem to figure it out. 

May 8- 130.2

Breakfast- fiber one and tea

Snack- melon

Lunch- burrito, chips, carrots and pea pods

Snack- larabar

Dinner- salad and chili

Day 240

Another day....

May 7-132.7

Breakfast- oatmeal

Lunch- salad, melon, carrots and pea pods

Snack- larabar and sesame sticks

Dinner- burger, broccoli and carrots, quinoa

Day 239

Glad to see the scale back down this morning. 

May 6- 132.7

Breakfast- oatmeal

Snack- banana

Lunch- taco meat, brown rice, black beans, chips, grapes, pea pods

Dinner- burger, broccoli and carrots 

Day 238

I didn't weigh myself this morning. No real distraction.  It was completely because I didn't want to know. I can't believe I play such stupid games with the scale. It's just a number and no one knows other than me unless I tell my husband (and whoever may stumble across this on the internet). 

May 5-??

Breakfast- oatmeal

Snack- fruit salad

Lunch- taco meat, chips, carrots and pea pods, grapes

Snack- larabar and sesame sticks

Dinner- carrots

Day 237

I'm rather confused why I would be up again this morning. I haven't hardly eaten in the past few days. I guess that could be part of the problem. As a result, I didn't eat spectacularly today. Ugh---

May 4- 134.4

Breakfast- oatmeal with chia

Lunch- shrimp and broccoli

Snack- larabar

Dinner- ground turkey, black beans, brown rice, tortilla chips 

Day 236

Still up again but not bad. I'll still take it. 

May 3- 133.7

Breakfast- oatmeal and tea

Lunch- chili and salad

Snack- larabar

Dinner- chicken wrap

Day 235

Not sure how I'm up based on what I ate yesterday, but I'm really okay with it. 

May 2- 132.7

Breakfast- oatmeal and chia

Lunch- white chicken chili, chips, carrots

Snack- larabar

Dinner- sirloin, zucchini, broccoli and yonanas 

Day 234

Well, that was certainly a surprise this morning. Never really expected to be this low. But it feels good. 

May 1- 131.4

Breakfast- oatmeal with chia

Lunch- burrito, carrots, tortilla chips and larabar 

Dinner- smoothie