Wednesday, September 11, 2013

Why Am I Here??

Why start another blog??  This is my attempt to hold myself accountable to get back to where I was before this adventure in four boys began.  Well...actually...before the adventure of number 4 began.  Let me go back to the beginning.

In the summer of 2006, my husband and I were so excited to find out that I was expecting our first baby.  We were elated and a little overwhelmed with all that it entailed, especially the idea of being pregnant.  I wasn't really sure what to do other than eat to feel good.  For me, that included a lot of carbs all day long while I was pregnant in order to keep the nausea at bay.  What that also entailed was 45 pounds of weight gain and going to the hospital to have the baby weighing in at 200 pounds!  I couldn't believe it.  Everyone told me that it wouldn't be a big deal because breastfeeding would make it all melt away.  WRONG!  I am one of these fortunate women that gets to hang onto all the baby weight until I am done nursing.  Once I am done, I have an easier time getting the weight to come back off.  I've come to the conclusion that because I don't produce much milk for my babies my body likes to hang onto fat sources in order to provide something for him.  

Thankfully though, after each of the first two boys I was able to get back to my pre-pregnancy weight within a year.  But I ended up pregnant again within a few months of getting back to where I started.  After number 3, I decided to take a different approach.  Over Christmas break of 2011, I happened to have the television on for myself and The Doctors came on.  They were featuring a new program called the PINK Method.  I watched for a few minutes before deciding to research it a little more.  I found their website and was impressed with their meal plans, their philosophy and especially their exercise program.  The exercise was the one component I hadn't really ever integrated into my life when losing the weight before.  

So, I ordered it and got started soon after the new year.  I stuck to the program pretty closely.  I didn't end up doing all of the workout components because it got to be very time consuming as time progressed.  But I stuck to their food formula exactly.  I cut out dairy and sugar and unhealthy carbs and I lost weight...LOTS OF IT!!  For each of the first boys, I always weighed in the 150s when I got pregnant.  The day that I found out I was pregnant with #4, I weighed 135!  I got down from a size 10 to a size 4!  I had never felt better about myself in my life.  

But now, I find myself sitting here holding my precious fourth baby boy and am struggling to get the motivation to do it all again.  As of the morning, I am weighing 167.  I feel horrible, lack energy and feel like I don't even know where to begin.  Well, I know where to begin but I am again in the situation where I don't make enough milk for my little guy and I am afraid that jumping back onto the PINK method will deplete it even more.   But I have set a goal for myself to be back into my old clothes by the time I go back to work which is in 12 weeks.  I don't know that I will get back there completely, but I want to be close.  

So, that's where I find myself.  I hope to use this blog to record what I eat on a daily basis as well as record my measurements.  I did this in a notebook the first time around and it was so rewarding to watch the weight come off and watch the numbers go down on my legs, waist, hips, bust and arms.  I will also record which of the workouts I do (which will be a little modified for a few more weeks until I am technically cleared by my doctor).  So this blog is mostly for me, but if you happen to come across this and want to join me, let me know.  I'd love to have a partner to do this with.  Tomorrow I will post a picture and all the starting stats.  Here we go!

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